DEEfine ME.

welcome to 4:42AM.

2009-07-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

Can't sleep; much on the mind.

I've taken time to reflect on the past whirl-winded two years and it has been quite a journey. I've had such extravagant highs and lows that it's been a unpredictable roller coaster...but it's been a ride, an unfortunately fortunate tale of events. Moving to Los Angeles; losing a best friend to wreckless driving, building a relationship back up from scratch, battling depression, battling untrustworthy friends, discovering who I really am and where my morals lie, moving back home to the bay area, searched for the right path for me, plucking out the damaged pieces of myself and replacing with the originals and now, I'll continue the ride.

life, love, family, friends, career, stability; it's all on my plate.
i'm grateful, scared, nervous, excited.

goodnight.

Blog Got a Makeover.

2009-06-24T13:40:00.000-07:00

Hello all-

My fashion blog has received a makeover. I want all my followers to follow the new blog: http://www.nobodyknowsyou.net

Click here to follow Nobodyknowsyou!

baptismal.

2009-06-21T23:28:00.001-07:00

Today is my two younger sisters, Grace & Emily's baptism. my, my, my have they grown up. and why on earth am I up so early when I don't have to be at church for another four hours...

Sorry I've been neglecting both my blogs as of late. June has been quite the hectic month and its not even close to being over. My brother graduated from high school on the 11th and it was so crazy because I was on that field four years prior. Pictures shall be up soon; I'm blogging from my phone so I could update you all for a bit.

My birthday was fantastic. I shared it with my most loved ones and everyone made it quite special. My boyfriend and I spent my birthday weekend in Santa Cruz and Jack London Square in Oakland. It was so amazing and the weather was finally gorgeous after a very cold week!!

My job is excellent; love the customers, the apparel and the location. The little street I'm on is like a little family. everyone checks up on everyone and chit chats...its really adorable actually. the boutique I manage is fantastic, extremely European with a twist. It's nice to finally work for a company who cares when it comes to the selection of merchandise. The fabrics are heaven and the trenches are too die for. I'll definitely be posting more when 1. I get a new laptop and 2. I get some time.

I'm going to be doing another vlog post soon. Oh, and I'm thinking of changing the name of my blog...fashiontablet was such a spur of the moment name. I'm thinking ill just name it what I'm going to name my consulting business...we shall see. anyone have any suggestions?

oh, and ill be posting more "look of the day" posts. :)

Love...

2009-05-27T10:12:00.001-07:00

is pure.
is true.
is real.
doesn't discriminate; brown, black, yellow or blue; you, me, him, her; gay, straight, lesbian or transgender;
doesn't hate.
isn't fake.
encourages the right.
discourages the wrong.
brings joy.
brings hope. ____________ no matter who you love.
brings future.

LOVE
...is the human race.

Equal rights for EVERYONE includes EVERYONE.

originally I was going to find love on photobucket but I decided to go through my friends list and find love that inspired me...here is Love.

life changes.

2009-05-24T13:14:00.001-07:00

Quick update;

Haven't really talked about what's been going on in my life. It's definitely something...

I've reached a point where I'm ready to put everything behind me; old friends, old news, being back home, everything. I'm learning that growing up is okay do it, just do it the right way.

No more nonsense; it's my time.

Being back home makes me sad to see everyone who is STILL here. I feel like no one grew up; same drama, same story. I'm so happy I got out when I did and this situation right here is absolutely temporary. I'm looking at great studios in Berkeley & Emeryville. I'm ready for my own place now with no roommates, no other rules, just me and what I want.

I have a new job now and I'm so excited. It's a great position and a great place to work. I'm staying positive with this one for sure. I'm setting myself on a private time limit and when I get there, I'm gone again. There's nothing for me here anymore besides my two best friends. And although I'm happy I have them here, I'm definitely not happy with being in the town I've lived in 90% of my life.

My time is coming; again. I don't know if that means going back to Los Angeles or moving to New York; maybe overseas or staying right here in the bay area. But one thing is beyond clear; I'm 100% over going out the way we used too. You're not going to see me how I used to be. I'm more for the classy joints these days and there is no more drinking. I've already lost a dear friend of mine to drunk drivers being reckless, and that's no going to be me. Smart choices from now on.

I have a fairly small yet good support system and THAT is all I really will EVER need.

Happy & rejoiceful,

Christina Dee.

My best friend...

2009-05-09T00:11:00.000-07:00

captures the essence of me.
BTW, that bow headband is hot; don't hate.
:)

2009-05-07T06:17:00.001-07:00

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Contacts! Contacts!

2009-04-27T09:17:00.000-07:00

So, there are many ways to follow me and what I'm up to and what's new in my life.

I've adding the links so it's easier for everyone in one location!

Twitter Me!

Check my fashion blog!

Check my personal blog! (which is the one you're at now)

My Lookbook!

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My Youtube Channel!

Email:

profreshconsulting@gmail.com

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My website is coming soon; going through a few things to put it up but IT WILL BE UP, so stay tuned please!

By the way, thanks for all the support from my friends and family and even from the strangers! Thank you!

xoxo,
Christina Dee.

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My Obsession!

2009-04-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

Everyone who knows me, knows I'm obsessed with Rachael Ray! Not only does this woman know how to cook easy but she cooks for real people, and I'm down for that. She's actually the reason I wanted to become invested in cooking besides help from my step-mom and mother. Rachael Ray has a bursting personality and I love watching her morning show, every day @ 9AM. The girls and I were planning a trip to NYC for my birthday but unfortunately it got cancelled but I was dying to see her show.

Anyway, I just had to blog about her since I'm watching her show right now and I told my girls and my family that I'll know I've made it, once I've been interviewed and told my story on the Rachael Ray. :)

Check her show at Rachael Ray Show!

lots of love,
Christina Dee.

DisneyKid does it again.

2009-04-23T13:58:00.000-07:00

lmaoooo. i'm dying, literally.
lololol.

Update! Update!

2009-04-07T03:55:00.000-07:00

but wait, I think I still need a J.O.B. in the meantime.
Anyone wanna hire me?
♥

High School Reunion at the age of TwentyOne.

2009-03-29T22:06:00.000-07:00

Happy 23rd Birthday Erin!

The thing is I have nothing wrong with seeing people from high school. I really don't have an issue; actually is rather hilarious to see how people have changed and how many people haven't.

Below are my best friends, since who knows when. The picture to the right was last night...my, how we've grown.

Anyways, although I love being with them and our other close friends, it can be so awkward to run into folks that you haven't talked to since you've graduated high school and the small talk can be so random. BUTTT it was great seeing a few folks and talk about what we've been up to..

It was our girl, Erin's 23rd birthday, and she had a highlighter party. It's where your supposed to wear white to get written on with all these highlighters but Heather and I did NOT want to get written on, yet we still had it all over our bodies. Erin, you could tell, had so much fun. It was great to hang around everyone and celebrate her birthday. I was doubting the fun at first but it was actually quite hilarious. We all had highlighters written all over us; so crazy.

Something random that happened was this girl who still hasn't gotten over dramz from high school, tried to start something last night and it wasn't happening. I've never known this girl, ever in life and it's too long of a story to even discuss but thankfully it was handled, (thank you ques and besties).

June 3, 1987.

2009-03-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

I know that many women my age aren't blessed to have a good mother; through the good and the bad, she accepts you for who you are.

I AM blessed with that mother.
June 3, 1987, God gave me her.
We fight often, we disagree on a lot of things and we have the same personality
BUT she also gets me 100%.

There are things I'm working on in my life to push me forward and pursue my dreams, making them come true. I feel her confidence in me and my dreams and goals. Although our personalities sometimes clash, she believes in me...and I couldn't ask for more in a mother.

♥.

my puppy.

2009-03-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

ella girl♥.

Personal Shopper.

2009-03-02T22:32:00.000-08:00

Finally; your personal shopper and stylist is here!!

I finally organized myself to actually to do this as my profession.
To see some of my work, click here.

Email me at profreshconsulting@gmail.com to schedule an appointment and to see rates. If you would like to see references, please email me for that as well. Make sure to put, "Personal Stylist Appointment" in the subject line.

Thanks much.
xoxo,
Dee.

Technology Frustration.

2009-02-26T12:30:00.000-08:00

Thoroughly frustrated is my feeling at the moment. The above photos are the phone I have now. I have now been on the phone with technical support for T-Mobile for TWO HOURS, and you know their solution, "I'm sorry ma'm. There's nothing we can do. They say the engineers are working on a solution to your problem but until then, there is nothing we can do. Sorry about that". Keep in mind, they also formatted my SD card so now it's unreadable but thankfully they refunded me the money. BUT that money is on my account, so I still have to shell out money to BUY ANOTHER SD card!

Here is what I've purchased to make my life better using the G1:

-1 new Dell 6400 computer
-2 SD cards
-2 replacement g1 phones

I returned the computer because it wasn't reading my phone. I purchased another SD card because it wasn't reading on my phone because apparently if you buy a 4g SD card, those don't read... ??? I got another replacement phone because it was still giving me the error when trying to load music on the phone. "an O/I error"...preventing me from putting music on the phone.

I still have not recieved my refund for my computer so I can't go out and buy a new one.

And all this, so I can have music to listen to at the gym.

In conclusion,
I hate technology. Fcuk you.

Vista Sucks.

2009-02-25T16:55:00.001-08:00

So...I returned my new computer today. I absolutely hated it and the only thing good about it was that it didnt take 15 mins to load up like my old computer did.I hate Vista too; its a very crappy system and it doesnt read anything i plug into it or none of that nonsense.That being said, I wont be making any new videos until I can find a computer that I really like!.......which might be a Mac...dun dun dun........lol.

Must Find Life.

2009-02-23T16:06:00.001-08:00

Russ. Video Chat. It's On.
Me. Get A Life.

Can't Sleep.

2009-02-23T03:50:00.000-08:00

So, what do I do?
I watch YT; it's my TV.

I've been watching 5awesomegays since I started my own vlogging YT and there are always pretty interesting, but this guy in particular CRACKS ME UP!!! Seriously, he is one of the funniest individuals out there. xo DK1.

♥

It's Ok, I know.

2009-02-22T23:21:00.001-08:00

Finally.
A new blog is here.
And it's official.
I have major ADD.

This Kid is My Hero.

2009-02-21T01:12:00.001-08:00

What would it be like....

2009-02-20T23:25:00.000-08:00

This is going to be thee touchiest topic ever but it must be addressed.

My friend Chelsi and I were having coffee tonight and I brought up a topic that is really touchy...only because race is a huge issue, still, today. As I was looking around at this coffee shop we were at, every SINGLE person was white. Now, I'm mestiza, half white/half filipino and Chelsi is half asian/half white. Every couple in that room was obviously white and it made me think about bi-race couples because Chelsi and I really only have dated black or miniority men.

Let me get to the point...

There are points where I wonder what it would be like to date a white guy because there is a HUGE difference from dating a white man and a minority man. I know, there are those execeptions but few and far between. Here's my analysis. White men treat women differently in everything they do, as I've had personal experiences in my life. White men are raised to win the woman by doing anything to get them. (I.E. the movie, Guess Who.)
I know, I know; there are going to be people who disagree with me but I'm not here to prove it to anyone...this is just simply how I feel through experiences.

So anyways, white men are taught this and when they grow up, they wine & dine their women and then, when it's time to go home, they end up at the T.V. or in bed, while the woman is expected to make sure the kids are okay, the home is clean, food is ready for tomorrow like lunches, etc. These men don't want help when it comes to "winning a woman" because they are in control, they make the decisions and expect their woman to do what they've grown up with and that's a housewife, a mommy maid.

NOW, minority men...different story. They may take a woman out, but GUARANTEED she had something to do with it, whether it be making the reservations, finding the place, making plans for after dinner, etc. That's just how it goes. Minority men (really, I'm taking about black men because that's where I've had the most experience) are raised to survive, to make it, to live. But doing so, they also get help; it's a struggle together. They are taught that they gotta make it through life to get somewhere, because that's our their ancestors had to do it, FIGHT to get where you wanna be. So, that being said, they may not make all the plans, or do everything from beginning to end because in reality, they've already done what they needed to, to "make it". But, thankfully, these men are so consistent. Once the woman and man are home, things don't change. The man checks with the woman to see if she needs anything, any help with anything she got going on, cleans up with her, etc.

Men are pretty simple but break it down in race, and it gets complicated. When I was in high school, I dated a white guy and things were different. We weren't a couple so things weren't expected like dinner, etc. yet even when he wanted to get a snack, we ended up at a Italian restaurant and he made sure that he ordered for me (although I refused) and made sure that he paid for everything, etc. etc. I didn't get a say in anything we did. He was a "beginning" not an end. They refuse help, they do it on their own and don't want any woman taking part in plans or decision making. They expect the "housewife"; "I'm the breadwinner, your the mommy maid".
To change that, minority men are "a beginning to end" because that's how they survive. They've gotta get somewhere, do things, survive so even things simple as dating, even though they get help from their girlfriend/date/wife, they finish. They want a woman who is independent, yet still dependent, wanting a housewife yet wanting a breadwinner, wanting a woman to help make decisions and take part in their lives.

So, at the restaurant, they're were multiple white couples around us and I could see the difference in the way they act with each other. The man orders, the man makes light conversation, etc. I know when Tre and I go out, we're laughing, making jokes, being loud, having fun, etc. It's something we are doing together and enjoying our time, no one being OVER the other. NO one is shadowing anyone, we're equal. It's not just our relationship; I've seen it in multiple couples, white and minority; the difference is clear.

This was a very vague description to this topic but I have a massage tomorrow early so got to get rest.
This was a touchy subject but it's how I feel, so get over it. :)

Starbucks Lids.

2009-02-20T01:38:00.000-08:00

picture provided by laeater.com

OOK...I know this topic is off the deep-end but seriously, what is it with the "NEW" Starbucks lids? I'm all for saving the planet and using less plastics and what not, but reeeaaallllllllyyyyy????

So, there have been mutiple times where I've gotten my drink at Starbucks and as I grab that cup, that lid snaps off and my drink spills either on my shoes, on my clothes or on my hand. GGRRRRR.......or this happens; I get my drink, everything is a-okay, and then I TRY to stick my straw in and it wont go in!!! I push and push and push and nothing happens. When it finally gets a little in, the straw gets thin and skinny and I can't get nothing out of it!!! Then the straw cracks, so then there's a hole in it and I can't suck anything out!

*SIDEBAR* this detailing is cracking me up cuz its not sounding too legit, like I'm talking about strwas and cups...lmao.

Not a Date Movie.

2009-02-10T23:46:00.000-08:00

Great movie. love.love.love.
So lucky that I no longer fit into this category.
This movie is a WONDEFUL EXAMPLE for
all the WOmen out there need to step it up
and stop wasting time.

im the jennifer aniston in this movie.
waited FOREVVVEERRRR and it was worth it.

thanks to you babe.
disneyland here we come.
♥

Oh Man.

2009-02-10T10:54:00.000-08:00

So man...

I have a huge list of blog categories to talk about. Things to look forward to:

1. Jean Vs. Tights Blog
2. Opinion on CB VS. Rihanna
3. About Being mommy
4. Church Blog
5. Spring Trend Forecast

See you soon.

Freshness.

2009-02-05T10:06:00.000-08:00

Oh good morning to the world on this beautiful February day;

there is a multitude of things I must get accomplished today and I'm still sitting on the couch, not doing them; well I lie...one of them is a new blog. I haven't written about what's been going on with me nor have a done a vlog in a while due to the chaos going on in my life. For whatever reason the month of February has been hell month. Let me catch you up to date.

P.S. Let me just say that Gwyneth is stunning and so fashion forward.

So anyways, I'm back at school and only taking two classes. I was a late-add (it was a very last-minute decision) so I could only try to add through teacher's permission. School has been hard, just like I thought; only because I hate school. :) I know, not great but I've never been able to focus, ever. I really enjoy my dance class. It's been so great to be back in dance; I'm hoping to choreograph a dance for class this semester.

Tara's one-year anniversary was on the 3rd of this month and it's been harder than ever. I couldn't take myself to her grave when I was down in Los Angeles this weekend; I'm not sure why but I couldn't so I decided to just hang out with her daughter...which put an automatic smile on my face. She is such a joy and so smart. I thought I would be able to blog about her for her one-year anniversary but it's taken me a while and I'm still not sure what to write. There has been so many thoughts lately about her and as my friends know, I've been having strange dreams and visions of her...a lot has to do with the unfinished business I have with her. That's all.

I really miss Los Angeles. When I was down there this weekend, I was driving around, and seeing all the familiar places and felt really sad. Honestly, I would love to move back down but it's definitely not the right time. I need to take care of business here in the bay first before I do anything else for LA. But the only things I miss are:

1. My baby
2. Jayla
3. The frequent trips to Robertson Blvd., 3rd Street Promenade, The Beverly Center, Les Deux & Santa Monica Pier.
4. Free coffee at Starbucks.
5. Trips to Target with my cousin.
6. Sabrina.
7. Having my own place.
8. The fashion :).

The things I don't miss are:

1. TRAFFIC!
2. Fake people.
3. Fake friends.
4. The expenses of LA.
5. The men.
6. The snobs.
7. Resturants who don't know how to serve properly i.e. Luna Park.
8. My old house.
9. Parking tickets.
10. The ways of getting into a club.
11. The gas prices.
12. No cable.
13. The techno music in clubs although I did get used to it.

Hmmm...time for a vlog.

Obama.

2009-02-04T14:31:00.000-08:00

I haven't been able to talk about Tara since it was the one-year anniversary yesterday...so I decided to post the video of her daughter...who is amazing and so brillant.

loves.

Meeet ONE HALF of ONE FOURTH of my FAM de FAM.

2009-01-26T17:26:00.000-08:00

this is my mom's side.
lovely, aren't they?
and loud as ever.
meet grace, emily & little dayna.
and my mother; she birthed me.
♥

1. Attitude.

2009-01-23T17:03:00.001-08:00

Almost A Year.

2009-01-22T08:55:00.000-08:00

To my dearest Tara,

I'm not coping too well. My emotions have exploded but I'm trying really hard to keep them in. I came across our "Contract", dated 05/11/04. You made a contract for us to both sign stating:

I, Tara Nicole Salazar, promise to start and share a business with my co-partner, Christina Dee Topacio, 2 years after high school. We will keep in contact and never change. Our plans will remain the same, as long as we live.

Then, we both signed, dated, til forever. To many and most, this doesn't mean much or anything at all but to us, it meant the world. Back then, we never realized how deep those words could cut; as long as we live. Never did I think that you would go, and leave; your not coming back. But now, more than ever, I'm going to fulfill our dreams. I'm your co-partner remember? Even if you dropped out, I'm here to still carry on our dreams.

Sometimes I just want to yell at God, to tell Him to bring you back; to see Jayla grow up; to be there for Derek; to be my best friend again. I know that you were taken for a reason but it's so hard for me to understand why.

I wish you were here. I wish I didn't lose contact with you. I wish I didn't get sick on your birthday. I wish your dad didn't take me to the hospital and take him away from your special day. I wish I was there for Jayla's birth. I wish I was there for her 1st birthday. I wish I was there to hold your hand through the rough times. I wish I was there as the best friend I said I was always going to be. I let you down and I'm sorry. I used to feel peace that you were gone because I felt like we were okay, that you still valued me when you left this earth; really, that wasn't the case and I'm so sorry for that. I can't take back the time lost, I can't take back the fact that your gone and I can't take back the fact that I wasn't there for you after your birthday.
I felt hurt that you left me. I felt hurt that you went with him instead of staying with me.

Now, it's all clear and I'm so thankful to understand now. I can't turn back time but I'm going to be there for Jayla. She will always know who you were and what a wonderful person you were. She'll know her friends and the people she valued most. I won't let her down; I promise. Contract signed.

You know, I'm still planning on creating that clothing business we always talked about. That is why I'm back in school. I'm going to do this. Your going to be a part of it whether you know it or not. You started this with me, your always going to be a part of this.

Your daughter is beautiful Tara. She is amazing and so smart. Derek is doing a great job raising lil' mama. We are all there for her too. She needs that female influence. :) I just wish you were here to see that little smile she has and girl, she acts just like you. She is such a story teller and loves people. I could spend hours with her, just like me and you did.

The girls miss you badly. On your birthday we all gathered at Derek's, to celebrate your life. It was really hard for some people; easier for others. We all got together though, no matter our feelings and our ways to handle you leaving us, to be with Jayla and Derek.

I miss our Jack and Ranch days. I miss sitting in the parking lot of Jack and talking forever. I remember the day I was moving, we sat in that parking lot til 530, right before I literally was packed up and moving. I don't think we talked much; I think we were scared to cry. I remember us coming back to the house and making a pact and then writing our names on the wall mountings as best friends. The people that live there now looked; it's not there anymore. I remember the day you called me crying, apologizing for me being mean to me; you were just sad I was moving. That was one example of why you were my best friend. You made my whole experience at DR so much better. You gave me great friends and showed me what a quality family is made of, no matter the drama. :) There are so many memories with you but I feel like most of them are going to be kept sacred to me.

I just want to say I miss you and I wait for the day I'll see you again.

I love you Tara Nicole.

Love always,
Christina Dee.

on a cool los angeles night....

2009-01-17T21:39:00.000-08:00

So I'm sitting in the backyard of my uncle`s house in Los Angeles and it`s beautiful outside right now. The weather is absolutely gorgeous and the dark sky is so clear. So many changes have occured in my life right now and all around me too. It`s strange; sitting at the "grown-ups" table, metephorically speaking. Once you`ve hit adulthood, the verbal usage changes and the conversations become so candid, enough to show you that the real world is not all sunshine and rainbows. It`s a scary feeling but it also feels so nice to know I'm part of it, like being accepted to sit at the cool kids table in the cafeteria.

All these changes have brought me to thinking about what it was like when I was younger, when I didn't know as much and wasn't suseptible (spelling) to all the grown things out in the world. I started thinking about;

Going outside to play skip-it in the cul-de-sac at my old house growing up when the grown-ups were in the kitchen talking.

When kool-aid, juice and sunny d was all I needed; no venti coffee, three splendas, add soy necessary.

When worrying about my creative writing assignment would get a passing grade instead of worrying about gas prices and higher rent payments.

How easy it was to have a boyfriend in elementary school was easy; all you needed was a gift from the 99 cent store for valentines day and the goosebumps series for his birthday and that boy was yours, well at least until you hit 6th grade.

When all the finances I thought about were how many quarters I had saved up from the weeks worth of chores to buy another babysitters club book; instead of $300 for college books.

When finding a job was easy; just ask mom. Now it's graduate from high school, go to college, get a degree and prosper.

When making gifts for friends and family out of macaroni and beads was the best present ever; now it`s wth.

When I didn't have to worry about losing a friend; now, thanks to the under-age drinking and licenses, I lost a friend.

When having dolls was fun to dress up and play with but at the end of the day, you put them away; now, you have life-size dolls that at the end of the day are still there and a bigger responisibilty than any doll you`ve ever had.

More to come....

Finally back...

2009-01-09T15:01:00.000-08:00

where we're supposed to be.
back in love.
life in progress.
thank you.
life;complete.
060406. renewed on 010709.
♥

I D.I.E.

2009-01-05T07:18:00.001-08:00

besides her humor, she just actually gets the shows on MTV. It's classic and hilarious.

Young Voices, We Hear You.

2009-01-03T02:13:00.000-08:00

I absolutely loving watching young talent on YouTube.
It's inspirational and exciting especially because these two
have been signed...I know Dondria is. Check them out.

Superhuman

Until The End of Time

Absolutely Explicit Viewing Ahead

2009-01-03T01:26:00.003-08:00

Oh, to start off this beautiful 2009 off, I had my wisdom teeth pulled. I freaked myself out by watching gross videos online of teeth being removed and read up on all the dangers of wisdom teeth being removed and scared myself so badly.

I was supposed to get my wisdom teeth pulled out three years ago...AND IT NEVER HAPPENED. Lol. So here I am, January 2, 2009, getting my teeth removed.

So, after the quickest hour of my life, and the hard-core"est" anesthesia I've ever had, here is the results. LMAO. Get ready to laugh.

I'm on hard-core Vicodin (spelling?) and I'm not swollen anymore. I'm dying for solid foods and a piece of candy. I accidentally hit myself in the face and hurt the left side of face, like a rere that I am.

The best part of this day was that I have such a supporting family and friends, seriously, theeee best. My stepmom was there with me the whole time and bought me all my favorite slurrpppyy things; mashed potatoes, jello, pudding and soup. Although when I walked downstairs for dinner, she had made this yummy pot of pasta with hamburger and yummy sauce and I had pureed brocolli and cheese soup. It was good though, not gonna lie.

Then Maggie Riess came over and gave me what I've been craving all day, a blanca freeze. If you've never had one, find somewhere that makes a good one, with giradelli's (spelling) chocolate. Anyways, my best friend Heather Marie came as well to hang out and it was just so great talking with them, having true friends, and feeling so much better. Even my brother came in to check on me to see if I needed anything and he took down my bloody gauze.

Seriously, I have such a sweet life. I've started my year off great even though I don't think anyone wants to endure freaking surgery.

So, to start your year off right, laugh at yourself. It feels good. I dare you, post a blog.
xo.Dee.

2009 Ladies&Gents.

2009-01-02T00:21:00.001-08:00

-Excuse the vulgar language-.

xo.dee.

The 2008 chapter is closing...

2008-12-31T01:15:00.000-08:00

2008 is coming to a close and with that, it's time to showcase my favorites of 2008. I look back and I had A LOT of obsessions. I can't even finish because I have so much. What I've mentioned in this one are my favorites.

xo.Dee.

Memories;

_Moving to Los Angeles on my own_

_Becoming a stylist_

_Buying my first Betsey Johnson bag; upgraded from Betseyville_

_Partied with celebrities (wasn't the business lmao)_

_Lost a best friend_

_Reconnected with the group we both kicked it with, RQ lol_

_Got closer to my cousin Michelle_

_Truely fell in love_

_Made amazing friends but never lost the best ones_

_Discovered that a majority of people I went to school with have children_

_WAIITT...for that matter, here's a memory; I was told I'm like Good Luck Chuck because every guy I've dated/had a relationship with has a child or bout to be married LMAO_

_Met the cast of Gossip Girl_

_Lost a friend I thought I could trust...to drugs_

_Lost a job I really loved_

_Bought my first dresser_
_Made friends on craigslist lol. Actually they were my roommates, but found on craigslist_

_Learned so much from her, Sabrina Noel_

_Started a blog, vlog and such_

_Struggled with my relationship_
_Had a great hookup at Starbucks; love free coffee!_

_Got myself out of a financial hole...and put myself right back in one_
_Had my first glass of Cristal_
_Tried shrimp for the first time..ew_

_Became a really good cook_

_Became obsessed with Rachel Zoe and MORE obsessesd with Betsey Johnson_

_Had a deeper understanding for sales associates_

_Actually had someone be GINUINELY nice to me that didn't know me at all; shout-out to Russ at Best Buy...like seriously GINUINELY nice_

_Had a deeper appreciation for my family and friends, finding out that the next day is not promised and to take advantage of the times you have together_

_Got much closer with Chelsi and Yvonne_

_Helped put on a fashion show_

_Learned the Thriller dance_

_Had my first official Happy Hour_
_Went to Vegas for my 21st and had so much fun; Did it ALL VIP STYLE_

_Danced to "white people music" lol. techno stuff for the first time lol_
_Cried in Tre's arms; a good cry though_
_Gave someone a friendship ring lol...Ashley MarieLynnBostonLA Hanson LOL_
_Got bangs; hated em and changed it like a few weeks later_

The importants;

best friends: Heather Marie, Maggie Riess & Chelsi Remi

love: Trevon Marcel
favorite songs: Shut Up and Let Me Go-The Tings Tings; If You Leave-Musiq Soulchild; Acapella (Something's Missing)-Brandy; Say (All I Need)-OneRepublic; Turn Me Off-Keri Hilson; Pop Rose-Drake; Tony the Beat-The Sounds; Superhuman-Chris Brown & Keri Hilson; My Life-The Game; I Hate This Part-PCD; Go Girl-Ciara; Electric Feel-MGMT

favorite movies: Dark Knight; 21; Iron Man; Hancock; Wall-E; Pineapple Express;

favorite electronics: MacBook Pro (STILL WANT); G-1; My GPS system;

favorite stores: Mars Vintage; Betsey Johnson; any random boutique; Urban Outfitters; Express

favorite websites: whowhatweardaily.com; runwaydaily.com; lookbook.nu; blogspot.com; stylechick.com; justjared.com; facebook.com; myspace.com; youtube.com

Favorite T.V. Shows;

The Rachel Zoe Project

The Hills

Law & Order

Real Housewives of Atlanta/Orange County

Favorite Mags;

Lucky

Nylon

Italian Vogue

Favorite YouTube Video;

This girl cracks me up all the time. Her humor is simple, blunt and hilarious.

This is someone I found on YouTube, that I BELIEVE, was signed with Mos Def. Amazing voice right?

This is actually someone I went to school with..amazing voice. Visit www.youtube.com/chrisramoswong or www.youtube.com/sonnyburns2332

She is absolutely hilarious and this particular skit she did had me dying because I SOOO do this.

First off, totally obsessed with this song..but seeing the emotion from this dance is so touching and I had to put this in my top for 2008. They performed this dance at their graduation because their friend passed away.

SOO inspired by young dancers.

Obsessions in fashion;

Colored tights.

Oversized Sweaters.

Sequin tops. But for me, I am obsessed with VINTAGE sequin tops; something about them just tell a story to me, something from the 1920's..brought into the 80's for their vintage, making my own 21st century vintage.

All photos from OBSESSIONS were taken from runwaydaily.com

New Years Resolutions...and ill stick to em this time.

2008-12-30T15:27:00.000-08:00

So I'm always making New Years Resolutions but this year, 2009, is going to be a LOT different.

check it.

Oh It's a Wonderful Merry Christmas!

2008-12-27T13:34:00.001-08:00

Im A Diva♥

2008-12-23T15:32:00.001-08:00

Diva is the female version of a hustler.

My heart is touched.

2008-12-21T13:46:00.001-08:00

You know, you never really think you make a difference. You never really think you touched someone's life. You never really think that somewhat...strangers, care.

This proves all those theories wrong.

I decided this morning to search my blog on Google to see if it showed up. Not only did it show up, but something got my eye... Shut Your Friggin Gob is a blog I read by a guy who has amazing customer service at Best Buy. :) Like he says in the blog, we never hung out, never talked on the phone and never got to know each other, but this proves that there are true, genuine people, especially in Los Angeles, that really do care.

Here is what he wrote, that touched my heart.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008
SelfLess
Her name is Christina.

I met this dope girl some time ago, chopped it up a lil, helped her out with some Best Buy stuff. We never kicked it, never talked on the phone, but i always had a vibe that she was a real chill person.
Fashion wise, healthy heart for caring about others. This video here proves it. Stay up girl, life will throw you curveball's, but it's already known that you'll knock that shit out the park.

*** WARNING: This vid was very difficult to fully watch. Get ready for the waterworks. ***

You can follow her blog @ deefineme

//EDIT// - Mad propz Girl, i could never ball out authentically and let my emotions out like that. Your on Hero Status.

Rest In Peace - Tara S. (12/17/1987 - 02/03/2008)
Posted by Russell Ramos at 2:59 AM

-----------------------------------------------

For a guy with such a heart, you should follow his blog. You might learn something you never knew.

Click here. His Blog.

Baby Girl.

2008-12-19T12:01:00.000-08:00

This is the product of Tara Nicole.
Derek is raising a beautiful baby girl.

man, i love her.

121508. Depressed.

2008-12-15T10:18:00.000-08:00

So, I'm fully depressed due to: Unemployment.
UGGGHHH.

As you all know, I lost my job almost a month ago.
Complications have given me NO CHECK! I'm so entirely
upset because not only am I missing my mom's birthday tomorrow
because I can't afford to drive out there, I can't go to Tara's
grave for her birthday because I can't afford to drive out there
either. It's so upsetting to be in this situation.

I don't know what to do because I have to move soon.
ohhhh, the complications.

xo.

Questions and I Need ANSWERS :)

2008-12-11T13:01:00.000-08:00

Oh hello beautiful Thursday!

So here's the deal. I have a new job and I'm collecting research for my project for this position. I would GREATLY appreciate it if everyone could contribute their ideas who are from the bay area. It would help me soooo much♥

Here are the questions I need answered:

1. Describe the Bay Area in ONE word

2. Describe the Bay Area fashion (Doesn't have to be in one word)

3. Does the Bay Area set the trend, follow the trend or doesn't go with any trend at all?

4. Where does the Bay Area shop: Mainstream like Nords or Macys, Vintage/Thrift shops, the mall, or online?

And if you could contribute a picture in an outfit from head to toe of you, that would be great too!

Email to: christina.topacio@gmail.com

Thanks again!

And thank you to:

*Chelsi
*Heather
*Maggie
*My dad lol
*Suzie
*Ashley
*Sheree
*Leilani
*Annie
*Hannah

xox,
Dee

New Move.

2008-12-10T02:40:00.000-08:00

A new chapter has began, as I've moved back home, to the beautiful San Francisco bay area. It's wonderful to be home, it really is, but there is definitely something missing. I know exactly what it is but I'm afraid if I say it, it will vanish...I'll curse it or something I know it...

Well, it's got to come off my chest one way or another. I really miss him and being with him, and the goal was to get a place for him and I by the end of the month but we've ran into a few complications and it's really wearing down the relationship. I feel like it's tearing us apart when it's supposed to be bringing us together.

Now that that's off my chest, check out the new videos posted.

p.s. I recieved a comment from my first official hater, twenty21oneeh8er, lol. This person posted a hilarious comment on my video of me back home so check it out.
xoxo.
Dee.

What is it about questions?

2008-12-04T05:21:00.000-08:00

Why do we question ourselves every time we make a move? Its like a game of chess; moving pawns to protect the hierarchy..always guessing if this really is the right move. You factor in if the move was right, if there was a better route and who will come out the winner, if there should even be a winner. But motivates us to take risks and to shy away from the unknown? Who are we to judge what others do when we all know our lives are no where near perfection although some of us would like others to believe.

In the generation I belong to and the age I am at, I feel like this youth has caused one another to question more than any other generation. It's like no one can be trusted and everyone is out for themselves. It's a game, a game of chess; Because sometimes we don't always move to protect the king and queen, we move to avoid the questionable.

That being said, I want to prove myself, to show not only my family and friends, but show the world what I can do and what I'm capable of. I need to also prove to myself that I can do this. The youth, the labels, the struggles and the insecurities all become minuet when I get focused. The distractions, however, draw me to another question.

When will we stop letting our issues affect what we want? What if the issues we go through, affect the choices we make, leading to the unhappiness and destruction of one's dreams? To that, I have no clue.

My passion has always been fashion and the desire to be a part of that world. I know I'll make my mark somehow but I've got to prove I want it, with taking chances and standing up for what I believe in, never settling for the lesser of me. I want to push through the weak and race with the winners...but when will that come?

Why as parents, peers and guardians do we question those we love? How much do we really want them to succeed because maybe that succession isn't what we had in mind...What if history repeats itself and find themselves in a situation we've lived through before? What if we want more for them? To that I say, you can only let them live...

I know I will make mistakes, hell, God knows I've made plenty of them but I know that no mistake goes unnoticed and it's all a learning experience. I'm learning to grow and how to use my creativity in the best way possible.

What is my goal?
Answer:. . . . . . .

The thing is, it starts with a question. The problem is the answer.

Vulnerablity.

2008-11-28T12:06:00.001-08:00

I know I posted this before, but I really want to post it even more now because of Thanksgiving. I am SOOO thankful for everyone who has entered my life and made a difference. For those not mentioned, don't think you're not on my mind because you are...but SHOOOTTT i was ballin my eyes out man. lol.

Here are a few people who bring me to life:

My mother-strength.
My dad-humor.
My step-parents-their positivity.
My brother-my everything.
My sisters, all four of them-their hearts.
heather marie-she showed me tough love.
maggie-helped me see who i really am.
leilani-showing me what a true manager is, taught me how to rule the world.
graciela-although we don't talk as much, my heart stays with you, as one who never judged.
chelsi-showed me that you can't judge your friends because we're always one step behind another.
hannah-my humor. ♥
ashley hanson-giving me the strength to move on and laugh about it.
trevon marcel-my all, my strength, through it ALL, we are still here. thank you.
auntie shirley-tough love & strength.
my grandparents-strength.
sabrina-showing me to be strong, move on, and do better. xo
yvonne-showing me that no one can replace true friends, no matter the distance.
*everyone who has a part of my life, thank you for everything. without any of you, even the ones not mentioned, thank you.

Happy Thanksgiving. To a new year...xoxo.

♥
Christina Dee.

Momma's comin HOME!

2008-11-10T16:45:00.001-08:00

Hey all!

I'm so excited to finally say, that I'm coming home to visit, FINALLY!
It's been so long and I couldn't be more excited! I want to be able
to see everyone I possibly can, so email me, bbm me, call me, text me,
myspace/facebook me...I wanna see everyone's pretty faces.

Here are the dates: November 11th-14th!

I'll have my car so I'll be able to travel around so make sure you
free up space for your ol' pal ;)

ps. besties, i wanna photoshoot. YES?! :)

I'd video blog this but I'm on lunch currently and that's not right. :)

annddd..i have to pee.

peace.
see you in the bay.

New Vlog dot com. =]

2008-10-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

time for a new blog.
also, non-informative.

need to post mas.

FYI.

2008-10-16T16:41:00.001-07:00

I can NOT get this posting pictures thing right. It's coming out all wrong.
eww. Don't mind the mis-proportions in this past blog about plaid.
AY YI YI.

P.S. New YouTube video :)